Medicinal Merry-Go-Round

Our journey down medication blvd. began very slowly. The Dr. first placed Aaron on minuscule amts of Lamictal, an epileptic drug...why? Don't know. We gradually increased it once before revisiting the Dr. At next visit, the day after Thanksgiving, he added Concerta. At that appt., Dr. weighed Aaron at 82 pounds. We began the Concerta & after 3 days, dbled it, still in conjunction with the Lamictal. Our days were still filled with the usual ups & downs & dramatic mood swings. Aaron would go from wanting to kill anyone around him to wanting to kill himself because he felt he was a "bad boy", then 20 minutes later, he would not even remember the incident(s). However, at this point Aaron was able to focus for about 45 minutes, in spurts. Therefore, I was able to begin bringing him up to his 3rd grade speed, as best as I could. Keep in mind that there are 2 other children involved in our family as well, which by now we're noticing signs of the same behavior in our youngest, but without the depression, he has a more aggressive nature. Needless to say, our lives are symbolic of a 3 ring circus...with fireworks, but there is love...and my strength comes from the Lord. At our next Dr. visit, in January, the Dr. takes Aaron off Lamictal & Concerta because of my concerns with Aaron's weight, which is now down to 53 pounds. He prescribes Zoloft, to help control Aaron's "inner-script" & obsessive tendencies. After 3 days of that Aaron was literally punching computer screens, beating his head on walls & violently seeking whom he may destroy, hurt, wound...ok, Zoloft's out! The Dr. then simply places Aaron back on his original dose of Lamictal & that's it...did I mention that this was only 3 days after our appt with him?! Well, while we await our turn for another Dr. (he's booked solid until summer), the Dr. has to do, even though I feel we've started over again. So for now, Aaron is on his Lamictal & Concerta combo...with force feedings everyday & struggles to take the meds everyday & combating his combative behavior everyday & still trying to see each child gets what they need everyday...but there is love...and my strength comes from the Lord.